Dear Grandma

When we (my sis and I) were younger, grandma (Ama) used to make her signature pandan kaya for us. We will stand on stools by the stove and just look at her stirring the mixture in the pot. It takes many hours to actually make a yummy pandan kaya and when it's done, we each get a small bowl of it to savour. I find it amusing that grandma speaks to us in Hokkien ever since we were born but we never actually learnt that dialect. We grew up with the sound of grandma's nagging that it became kind of a chant. At times, we find it funny she'll continue nagging or talking even when nobody is responding. But that's grandma.. and we all love her very much.

It has been 5 days since grandma is hospitalised for head trauma. Her condition is deteriorating day by day.. I'm still strongly hoping that she'll recover soon. Mommy called in this morning to inform me that grandma can't talk nor move much since yesterday. So if God do exist, I'm begging you to let this old lady be with us a little longer. Please spare her the pain and suffering. She has gone through enough hardship raising her children as a widower so she deserve to live a happier life a little longer. I know grandma loves to nag and a lil' pessimistic at times but it's okay.. I don't mind her nagging longer and I don't mind her asking me to do things. I just want to see her smiles and hear her voice. She only smiled at me today when I was by her side and drifted to sleep again. So please...... let grandma get better.